One of the greatest privileges of being a writer is to be able to see yourself through writing, to be able to see your's own changes in the way my art also changes.
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One point in common among all art forms is the artist's search for a "personal style," an easily identifiable characteristic in his or her work that tells people "I did it," and in writing, this could be no different.
"Do you still remember how all this started? When you lay quietly, in the warm arms of a notebook, scribbled the first verses And sighed with fright as you realized what you had done... The incalculable power that had awakened inside you, Your own words, Which, like a fever, consumed you until you learned to tame them. You became poetry." - Excerpt from the poem "My Dear Me"
My journey in writing started this way, in a search for defining a writing pattern, something that would characterize me as a writer, so I went after the most varied references, Mario Quintana, Clarice Lispector, Caio Fernando Abreu, Lygia Fagundes Telles, thinking that when I had my style defined, my writing would flow much more easily.
But the scenario I came across was not exactly like that, because when I tried to standardize my writing, I ended up pruning a good part of the potential poems that could emerge at that moment, because they did not fit a specific characteristic I was looking for at that moment.
This lasted until I had a huge creative block, unable to write a single verse for months, and it made me realize that the way I saw my writing needed to change. Instead of rejecting the inconsistency, the changes in style and language, I decided to embrace it as part of my personal style, and in this way, I ended up also embracing, even if unconsciously, my own change, allowing myself to be more fluid, as well as a lot of writing.
"You would never give up those things you saw, the people you met, the conversations you had, the moments you lived, Because no matter where you looked,
You always saw poetry." - Excerpt from the poem "My Dear Me"
And today, allowing my writing to go as far as it needs to go, by whatever path it decides to take, I can see my literary evolution with joy and pride, I can identify all that has changed, and all that has remained, like a mirror that allows me to look at myself under the gaze of a third party. If before, my writing served as a form of experimentation, as my laboratory mouse, today I can't even tell where my art begins and ends.